THIS GUY JUST ASKED ME WHAT MY NAME WAS AND I DIDNT UNDERSTAND WHAT HE SAID SO I SAID 4:45
i don’t know what to do anymore i wasted so much fucking time on this kid. i had a chance to start over with 2 different guys over the course of this year and i turned them down because i thought i still had a chance with this kid..i’m honestly so upset i didn’t leave when i knew i should’ve. i’m fucking sick to my stomach and i’m so angry and really confused. i’m so bitter and selfish i need help
me and this kid have had on and off feelings for each other since 3rd grade (silly i know) and we’re almost juniors in high school now and there were points where we had plans to eventually end up becoming more than friends but he left me twice for 2 other girls last year both before school dances and homecoming he even openly told me that he’d rather go with this other girl because he was talking to her before we started again for thousandths time and he kinda fucked it all up and ever since then we’ve been kinda broken but some how we still sorta had feelings for each other and now it’s just like we don’t talk hardly ever and neither of us maned up and opened up about anything and i’m so fed up and i ended up shading him on instagram and he asked me about it and i was honest like i’m not gonna lie to him and now i think it’s really over between us and i’m not sure if i’m okay with it or torn up about it..i’m so confused like i do love him honestly and i feel like some where along the lines we’re meant to be together but i just don’t feel like it’s now..and i’m so hurt in a way ???? but at the same time i’m not and i just don’t know anymore ???
i almost forgot to watching the new episode of finding carter bye